Yesterday was the last full moon of the year, and it was a powerful one... Positioned in Cancer, this one really hit home for me and all the things that have been on my heart as of late. Much about letting go of the past, transformation and healing. I am so ready to move beyond my sadness of the loss of my parents, and into a state of being that simply holds their spirits within me as I move through my day to day, honoring them through my actions and love. I have been feeling a huge healing transformation heading my way for some time... and although I have felt touches of it all over me, I feel the real stuff has even yet to begin, but I feel it coming. I have no idea what it looks like or how it feels, but I feel ready for the leaping, into whatever it is. I have alot of letting go to do. After having a certain little run in with someone the other day, out of the blue, I felt my heart lift some old burdens. Feeling the sheer negative energy oozing out of them reminded me of the reasons its necessary to simply walk away at times. And after years of feeling guilt within myself, in that moment, I realized it was so self imposed, and I instantly felt a dark cloud lift away from me. This moment led me to look a little further into other areas of my life I have been self imposing imprisonments of guilt, fear, shame, etc. There is alot of it. And Im learning that most of it is tangled within myself b/c I have allowed it to be there. There are some much deeper things within my personal being that I have been trying to work on for so long now it seems... but always came to road blocks and would mentally throw my hands up, give up. I feel a new road is ahead of me now... one that is guided by my ancestors and is shown to me through people who show up in my life. I have learned to recognize when someone is placed in my life with something big for me to pay attention to. Even the ones who cause hurt and create huge emotional blocks. They are all here to teach me something. New perspectives have been showing up all around me, and I am grateful for this.
These quotes from Celestial Space Astrology for this full moon resonated deeply with me...
"There are some memories so deeply embedded within the Unconscious, that they need to be exposed for transformation and healing to take place so they no longer influence your life or behaviors. Why hold on to painful memories from your own life or that of your family ancestors and genetic lineage.
The exquisite potential of the Full Moon in Cancer is re-establishing emotional purity and strength. Allowing one to be confident and free to express feelings and flow with life. Learn to honor your feelings and attune to the Sacred Feminine. Be receptive to healing and also remain open to allowing things to wash away and prepare your inner container for new beginnings by being in the present moment. Let the raw emotion of rejection, abandonment and emotional betrayal heal. Allow love to caress you and nourish you on every level.
Another piece to the Full Moon in Cancer is that people have a tendency to live on auto-pilot tend to carry forward sticky emotional guilt, painful memories, family curses, intense bitterness within the ancestral lineage without even questioning anything. And at times this plays it out in their personal lives or with situations in present time. The old story repeats in a loop like a memory.
The Full Moon in Cancer offers a wonderful opportunity to let go of being on auto-pilot and detox. Allow whatever is meant to be exposed to be revealed you can face it head on and move forward. It it also possible one’s family or ancestors that have transitioned (died or left the physical body) will be around to support this important phase and transformation. They too want to contribute so that the ancient patterns heal and become whole and healthy once again."
I am here. I am listening. I am open to receiving. I am asking for guidance. And I am grateful for the support I receive.